It’s funny how sometimes I can feel like a totally capable adult while at the same time feeling like I don’t know what I’m doing and am doomed to failure.

Ok, maybe I don’t feel those ways at the same time; maybe I seesaw back and forth.

Work is good, I suppose, but work is challenging. Right when I feel like I have something figured out and everything’s going my way, something else comes up or is said or whatever that makes me feel like a rookie and feel like I’m not measuring up.

Last week I finally, finally, started to make a little traction with the renovations and the move. This week is the week of visits to the principal’s office. Not literally, of course, but instead meetings called by higher-ups to “touch base”. I hate them. I feel like they’re being called because the highers aren’t happy and I always go into such meetings nervous.

It’s all in my head, of course, but it doesn’t feel that way. I just need confidence.

How do I get it?