I am applying to graduate school. And it’s terrifying. I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to assemble all the necessary requirements, but… I dunno… I don’t know if I really have a good chance at getting in.

Everybody says I do and that I shouldn’t worry, but I worry all the same. In college I was great at learning, but half-assed most papers and wasn’t great at taking tests, so my transcript isn’t as good as it should be.

I really think that I might get shot down by each of the four places that I’m applying to. I wish I hadn’t told anyone except Emily about wanting to apply. If I hadn’t said anything I won’t have to have any embarrassing “nope didn’t get in” conversations.