{"id":437,"date":"2011-12-05T19:23:46","date_gmt":"2011-12-05T23:23:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/?p=437"},"modified":"2011-12-05T19:23:46","modified_gmt":"2011-12-05T23:23:46","slug":"the-unwinnable-battle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/?p=437","title":{"rendered":"The unwinnable battle&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m actually a little ashamed of myself right now. <\/p>\n<p>Just got into a bit of a&#8230; umm&#8230; contentious phone conversation. Someone was trying to convey some information to me, was doing it with what I perceived as a robust amount of attitude, and was not at all pleased when my hackles went up and asserted that I didn&#8217;t appreciate the &#8216;tude. She accused me of fabricating her adversarial nature (which I really don&#8217;t think I did) and implied that her department would stop fulfilling their role in the matter being discussed (which would be simply unacceptable). <\/p>\n<p>And while I do think that technically I was in the right, I&#8217;m angry and ashamed at myself because this is just another example of me fighting a battle that I didn&#8217;t need to fight. Could have ignored her passive-or-not-so-much aggressivity and been the bigger man. <\/p>\n<p>Instead, I ignored the better angels of my nature and got down in the dirt and the mud. Makes me feel low. Common. Like a dick. <\/p>\n<p>Why do I need to be so confrontational all the time? Why am I always on the lookout for any perceived slight, no matter how small? Why can&#8217;t I be more relaxed, more level headed? <\/p>\n<p>Why am I so ready to fight the world? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m actually a little ashamed of myself right now. Just got into a bit of a&#8230; umm&#8230; contentious phone conversation. Someone was trying to convey some information to me, was doing it with what I perceived as a robust amount &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/?p=437\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/437"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=437"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/437\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=437"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=437"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/nerdhut.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=437"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}